Missing my Jack

It's been one week and one day since i had to say goodbye to my special boy,there has not been one day that has gone by that i haven't thought of him...i miss him terribly and it hurts when i think about him..i miss seeing his gorgeous little face and his beautiful eyes looking at me.
I often stand where he used to lay and i just wish he was still there...i miss looking after him,i miss his kisses...oh boy i just miss him.

The last goodbye

Jack's front right leg was starting to give way and he was starting to lean to his right side and he had been biting his blankie...the biting the blankie thing really concerned me..i could see in his actions he was getting frustrated..so i made an appointment to see the vet on the 8th May to assess Jack.
After a long discussion about Jack..we thought it would be in Jack's best interest to let him go peacefully...yeah i broke down and cried cause i realized he wasn't going home with me yesterday...i would be going home empty handed.
I said that Jack was to be cremated,and i picked out a little urn and the colour i chose was dark blue...he should be back to me in about a week..i cannot wait as then i know he is back home where he belongs.
I miss Jack terribly,and the tears haven't really subsided yet....i'm finding it imensley hard to pack up hid bed,so it's still there in the same spot...which Sunshine keeps going back to and just sitting there....she loved Jack.
I'll miss you forever Jack..my precious boy

Jack isn't able to move his front right leg properly anymore..which is making him lay on his right side,i know this is not good for him and i think i need to make a decision in Jack's best interest..my heart keeps getting in the way..and i'm just so torn up at the moment but i think i know what i need to do.

I took Jack outside for a bit this afternoon..he enjoyed himself..he just loves munching on the nice fresh grass...then he would just sit there and stare a bit..and i just wondered if he was remembering running around and just lying about in the shade on a nice warm day..the good ol days where he had freedom to run anywhere he wanted....i just wonder if he remembers....

I was giving Jack his pellets this evening,and while he was eating i just stared at him and started to think back to when Jack could hop...and i just pictured him speeding around the backyard,stopping to munch on the grass then go for another run around,laying in the shade on a warm breezy day like it was today...you know..i just miss all that immensley.
Jack is just a very sprcial boy....i just love it when he gets excited about his food..you can see the excitement in his eyes.

It's been such a quiet day today...not much has gone on...i really just chilled out for the day...did a bit of washing and just spent time with the bunnies...i'm at my most happiest when i'm just home with the bunnies...anyway the weather wasn't the best..it was kinda coolish today.
Jack's fur looks so much better now..and yeah he just had mites which i really should have known.

Just thought i would post a cute picture of Jack that i had taken a few weeks ago.