Missing my Jack

It's been one week and one day since i had to say goodbye to my special boy,there has not been one day that has gone by that i haven't thought of him...i miss him terribly and it hurts when i think about him..i miss seeing his gorgeous little face and his beautiful eyes looking at me.
I often stand where he used to lay and i just wish he was still there...i miss looking after him,i miss his kisses...oh boy i just miss him.

The last goodbye

Jack's front right leg was starting to give way and he was starting to lean to his right side and he had been biting his blankie...the biting the blankie thing really concerned me..i could see in his actions he was getting frustrated..so i made an appointment to see the vet on the 8th May to assess Jack.
After a long discussion about Jack..we thought it would be in Jack's best interest to let him go peacefully...yeah i broke down and cried cause i realized he wasn't going home with me yesterday...i would be going home empty handed.
I said that Jack was to be cremated,and i picked out a little urn and the colour i chose was dark blue...he should be back to me in about a week..i cannot wait as then i know he is back home where he belongs.
I miss Jack terribly,and the tears haven't really subsided yet....i'm finding it imensley hard to pack up hid bed,so it's still there in the same spot...which Sunshine keeps going back to and just sitting there....she loved Jack.
I'll miss you forever Jack..my precious boy

Jack isn't able to move his front right leg properly anymore..which is making him lay on his right side,i know this is not good for him and i think i need to make a decision in Jack's best interest..my heart keeps getting in the way..and i'm just so torn up at the moment but i think i know what i need to do.

I took Jack outside for a bit this afternoon..he enjoyed himself..he just loves munching on the nice fresh grass...then he would just sit there and stare a bit..and i just wondered if he was remembering running around and just lying about in the shade on a nice warm day..the good ol days where he had freedom to run anywhere he wanted....i just wonder if he remembers....

I was giving Jack his pellets this evening,and while he was eating i just stared at him and started to think back to when Jack could hop...and i just pictured him speeding around the backyard,stopping to munch on the grass then go for another run around,laying in the shade on a warm breezy day like it was today...you know..i just miss all that immensley.
Jack is just a very sprcial boy....i just love it when he gets excited about his food..you can see the excitement in his eyes.

It's been such a quiet day today...not much has gone on...i really just chilled out for the day...did a bit of washing and just spent time with the bunnies...i'm at my most happiest when i'm just home with the bunnies...anyway the weather wasn't the best..it was kinda coolish today.
Jack's fur looks so much better now..and yeah he just had mites which i really should have known.

Just thought i would post a cute picture of Jack that i had taken a few weeks ago.

It was a very beautiful day today...maybe i could say it was perfect..sunny and warm...i was going to take Jack outside but i thought against it as i was worried about flies hanging around him...and i couldn't take him out this evening cause time just ran away from me...so i'm gonna try to take him out tomorrow evening...he loves being outside i can see it in his eyes...and i'm sure he really does miss being able to go outside himself...but still..he hasn't given up..

Jack is still doing well...i know i haven't updated on him for a while...but yeah things are going good.
Nothing much has really changed with him...he still has a healthy appetite...he's still curious as to whats going on around him..and he still has so much love to share..yes he still gives me lots of those special Jack kisses.
Well it's the last day for daylight savings..it finishes 3am sunday morning,so just a few more hours..yay!..finally...i get my extra hour back...i just have to remember that when i wake up in the morning..i have to take off that extra hour.
I'm enjoying my four day easter break...just wish it could go on longer...and the weather has been absolutely perfect...but winter will be here before i know it.

Well i'm sure i know why Jack is losing some fur..i'm sure he has mites..so i'm going to be treating him tomorrow and i will see how he goes.
I have to weigh Jack then i will go to the vet to get it and i will start treatment tomorrow.I went to the vet this evening but they wouldn't give the advocate to me as they need to know Jack's weight first..otherwise they could over dose him if they are not careful.

Jack is still not putting on any weight,he seems to be losing more and his fur is starting to have a 'messy' look and he's losing fur around his tummy...i'm starting to worry more about him now,and am starting to have serious thoughts..again...he was doing that well all that time..but i now need to start thinking what's best for him..he still has a healthy appetite and everything and is still bright and alert,this is why it is so hard on me..but the weight thing is not good.
Oh Jack!

Goodness,i haven't updated on Jack for a while..
Well Jack is still doing so good...i tell ya this boy is just a darling...still no bad days for him...his appetite is still going strong...he loves all his food..which is just great...i have also been syringing him extra water because it's been so warm...so just want to make sure he's getting enough water...he does drink on his own though.
He's been moving off his blanket quite a bit also...he's a very clever boy.
He loves his scratches and i can see the excitment in his face and his eyes...also like he has always done..when i scratch his head he will move his head up as if to say more mum...and then it looks like he has this little smile on his mouth....gosh he just melts my heart.
At this very moment he's happily eating his veggies.

The weather is so much better at the moment,our heat wave has finished...thank goodness!
The funny thing is..the day after the heat wave finished it poured with rain and the day was really coolish...but today was just beautiful..such weird weather.
Just gave Jack some carrot,so he is happily munching away at the moment...but i don't like the fact that he's losing weight...that still has me worried...he's eating just fine...he still has a great appetite..which is good...he just doesn't seem to be able to maintain his weight...i'll just have to see how things go with Jack for a while.

Oh boy,it's been ridiculously hot here the last few days...and i mean hot!...the weather has been in the 40*C....but we are suppose to have a bit of a cool change tomorrow..yay!....i hate the heat,especially when it's hot for days.
Well Jack is still doing good...i have been giving Jack(and the other bunnies) lots of salad dipped in water...I also syringe Jack water just to make sure he's getting plenty to drink...the thing is though...i'm noticing he's losing weight,i don't know why as i'm always feeding him to make sure he's getting plenty to eat...i'm worried about that.
I brought in some grass from out the back but he didn't want it this time,so i went and got him more salad and he ate that instead...thank goodness.
The little bugga scared me half to death yesterday....i came home from work and i went to check on Jack and usually when he hears me coming he props his head up,but this time he just kept it on the ground,his eyes were shut and he was just lying there,well i went into immediate panic mode and i couldn't see his stomache moving,i was touching his head and softly calling his name when all of a sudden he woke up....oh he was just fast asleep,what relief i felt...i told him don't do that again and then i gave him a loving head scratch and a kiss on his nose.
I gave the bunnies some pineapple this evening,some don't like it,but jack just about snatched it out of my hands...umm he loves pineapple lol.

Jack's doing good...I had given him a piece of watermelon earlier and he just munched right into it...he loves watermelon.